The last few months have been the quickest I have experienced in quite a long time. It seems like only yesterday I was sitting in my first class, wondering what to expect. I can confidently say that it wasn’t this. I expected to go to class, go home, do homework, rinse, and repeat. I have done all of that, but with a few added tidbits. I talk in my classes, make friends, and hold homework sessions.
I knew I wanted to be an English teacher from the day I applied for college. I have found that this was a really good idea. I truly enjoy helping people make good grades. I started helping a few of my classmates in my finite math class. I don’t even like math, but I am capable of explaining it and being understood. If I can do that in a subject I don’t like, I know I will love doing it in my favorite subject.
This was only reinforced through all of the peer reviews we have done. I used to doubt my ability to edit a paper, or give useful feedback. With the practice I have had, both in class and out, I have more confidence that I can be fair in my judgement based on the writing, and help people become better writers. I know I need a lot more experience before I will be sure of myself, but I have grown a lot since August.
Then there are the papers I have written. I was never confident in my writing. I still second guess myself frequently, but we are our own worst critics. I am less afraid of using a billion commas. Those rules are somewhat flexible. Except, of course, for the Oxford comma. That one is necessary, because I don’t want to have a party with “the strippers, Hitler and Stalin.” That would just be creepy. Making the words go from my head to my paper, or screen in most cases, is still hard. It probably always will be. However, it has gotten easier, and I suspect it will continue to get easier with every paper I write and every class I take.
I think one of the best things I have gotten out of this semester has been the confidence. I will always be glad I finally got back to school, and I can’t wait for what is yet to come.